My first love....his name is Jonathan! I've known him since 2002. We dated when I was in the military for 2 years, we stayed in touch after he got out and last summer I came to visit him in Indianapolis and we got back together. You would think my story ends with a "happy ending" but he broke up with me in March. After I had changed my life around to move to be closer to him he decided he wasn't ready for a relationship. I'm not going to lie I felt like my world was crashing down around me, I felt betrayed, I felt alot of things I've never felt before. He knew about my past experiences with men and he basically did the same thing. I've never experienced the "brokenheart" experience. I've had my fair share of boneheads but nothing that was horrible enough to upset me for a long period of time.
Even though he did this I wasn't going to change my plans of moving to Indy...I've always wanted to move away from Kansas City and he just gave me extra "umph" to do it. When I first got here I thought "what have I done....I left my whole life...only to be here alone" He helped me move here and he did alot of stuff for me to help me get back on my feet when I finally got here. It was hard but I had to tell him to give me space because he was hurting more than helping me. I need to figure myself out before I can ever be with someone or even try to date again! Everyday it gets better and things can only go up from here. This is one of those "learning experiences" that will definitely change my way of approaching a relationship! I don't hate him or harbor any resentment towards him...I just think as much as he thought he was doing a "good thing" he still hurt me and I need time to heal! And I'm doing that right now! My focus is on school, work, decorating my new apt, and enjoying my new city! All that other stuff will come when it's supposed to! My Prince Charming is out there waiting for me but I just haven't met him yet! I'm just going to enjoy this ride called life and see where it leads me! :)
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