Day 2 My first love

My first love....his name is Jonathan! I've known him since 2002. We dated when I was in the military for 2 years, we stayed in touch after he got out and last summer I came to visit him in Indianapolis and we got back together. You would think my story ends with a "happy ending" but he broke up with me in March. After I had changed my life around to move to be closer to him he decided he wasn't ready for a relationship. I'm not going to lie I felt like my world was crashing down around me, I felt betrayed, I felt alot of things I've never felt before. He knew about my past experiences with men and he basically did the same thing. I've never experienced the "brokenheart" experience. I've had my fair share of boneheads but nothing that was horrible enough to upset me for a long period of time.

Even though he did this I wasn't going to change my plans of moving to Indy...I've always wanted to move away from Kansas City and he just gave me extra "umph" to do it. When I first got here I thought "what have I done....I left my whole life...only to be here alone" He helped me move here and he did alot of stuff for me to help me get back on my feet when I finally got here. It was hard but I had to tell him to give me space because he was hurting more than helping me. I need to figure myself out before I can ever be with someone or even try to date again! Everyday it gets better and things can only go up from here. This is one of those "learning experiences" that will definitely change my way of approaching a relationship! I don't hate him or harbor any resentment towards him...I just think as much as he thought he was doing a "good thing" he still hurt me and I need time to heal! And I'm doing that right now! My focus is on school, work, decorating my new apt, and enjoying my new city! All that other stuff will come when it's supposed to! My Prince Charming is out there waiting for me but I just haven't met him yet! I'm just going to enjoy this ride called life and see where it leads me! :)

Day 3...my parents

My parents! Dad: Charles Casey RIP (12/27/57-11/27/84)

Mom: Michele Van 2/6/55

My parents met while going to college at Kansas University. Yes I'm a KU fan I was brainwashed at a young age! Rock Chalk Jayhawk! Anyhooooooo! My mom is in the green dress by the way. My mom was/is a AKA, my Dad played on KU's football team. I guess he was pretty popular back in those days, my mom was aware of him but never really went out of her way to pay attention to him. He pursued her and she played hard to get...CLEARLY whatever my Dad was doing worked because here I am! I don't remember much about my Dad but I know he loved me to death. He called me "Erin Berin" I wish I would have been able to spend more time with him but God had other plans for him.

All I've known is my Mom, Grandma, Aunt, Uncle, and God Parents. That's who "raised me" I never felt like I wanted for anything growing up! I got to do everything I wanted to do. Dance, Basketball, Volleyball, KU Basketball camp...you name it I did it! I feel like I had the best childhood and my mom made sure I had it. She sacrificed alot to send me to private school, I was pretty hyper when I was little so I'm sure it took alot of patience to deal with me. I may have been difficult but I appreciate everything my Mom and other family members have ever done for me. I think I'm a stronger person because of my Mom. It amazes me that she dealt with my craziness when I was growing up. As much as I miss my Dad I feel like he's always with me! He's my guardian angel I always feel he's around me making sure I'm safe. Not to mention I'm almost a carbon copy of him! I get comfort in the stories I hear from my family about how he was with me! I love my parents I wish I could go back in time and see them before I was around I'm sure it was entertaining to say the least!

30 days

Hello!

I'm trying this 30 day challenge someone posted on Twitter! Allow me to introduce myself...My name is Erin, I'm 29 years old. I moved to Indianapolis in May to be closer to my boyfriend...well now he is my ex boyfriend but that didn't stop me from moving. His plans may have suddenly changed but I still wanted to know what it's like to truely be on my own. I've always wanted to get out of "The Bubble" otherwise known as Kansas City, Missouri! That's my hometown but I had to spread my wings!

I'm a student (taking classes to eventually become a pharmacist) and I work part time as a Pharmacy Tech. Sometimes I'm afraid of what the future is going to hold for me. Will I meet "the one"? Will I get married and have kids? Will I be a good pharmacist? Being alone in a city where I know very few people has been a little rough but it gets better every day and I'm up for the challenges that life will bring me. This is a little preview of my life but I think I can do this blogging thing!